when i am meant to be nothing

Like most people, there are instances when I have a sudden, inordinate desire to be great...to be somebody.  I'm pretty sure I've posted a couple of times in the past that I'm meant to be ordinary and that I should consider it to be a good thing.  This post is obviously a redundancy, but it's a healthy reminder on my part: "to take delight in being unknown and unregarded (A Kempis, The Inner Life)."

book hoarding sloth

I look at the book shelf and see Salman Rushdie and the Dante Club staring dust-filled daggers at me for not reading them and going for ebook versions of Kafka's Metamorphosis and H.G. Wells's Time Machine.  Tsk tsk tsk.

Sometime soon. I have an urgent matter to attend to: my Plants vs Zombies Zen garden. 

What's your trip?

Tripadvisor is as dangerous as online window shopping. You end up longing for places to go to, which you have a slim-to-none chance of ever visiting. Another example of why ignorance is bliss.

Textured

We're all rough; not only around the edges. We have patches of rough that we magnify and sulk over due to a distorted desire for the smoother areas. Rough is good. It means a life that is being spent well. A life roughened by actually living.

beyond appearances

I feel very low like Vincent van Gogh.
I should paint a picture or write a sad song.

Post #396

Six years of blogging and still no "tags" feature. It's been 396 posts overdue and I can't be bothered to conceptualize categories or tag each post. I might have some sort of cringe-ing episode if I had to force myself to read every crap I've written for my past catharsis-es...catharses(?)...hmm

-----> 2013 update: Labels are in! Order is cleanliness. And cleanliness is next to godliness....not godliness as in being or wanting to be God akin to eating the forbidden fruit, but you know what I mean.

Counter counter

The un-Christian side of yours truly says "go with the flow."
And now I'm beating myself and wastefully introspecting about the practicality of judging when judged.

ambivert acting like an extrovert prefers introversion

 

mousepad above from www.printfection.com

Time.com posted the article "The Upside Of Being An Introvert (And Why Extroverts Are Overrated)" by Time's Tokyo Bureau chief Bryan Walsh and I realized that there's nothing wrong with feeling uncomfortable with large social activities involving at least 90% (okay, 50%) strangers. For the most part of my life, I had to learn to camouflage this semi-aversion to socializing by joining organizations & groups centered on something I particularly love, such as music or science.  Small group talks with people I trust or family are, understandably, exceptions to this semi-aversion.  My mother recognized my unusual interests as a young girl (star trek, paul mccartney, classical music, egon spengler, not going out, mini mouse t shirts, etc) and encouraged...coerced me to join a youth group. On hindsight, I'm grateful to my mother for that, because the day that she took me to a youth group meeting was the day I met my husband. Interesting strings of the universe, might I say.

Proud introvert...oxymoronic-ish.

english filenglish. i speak doodad.

My internal issues with ins, ons, ats, etcetera leave me sleepless.  Like it's the middle of the night, everyone's asleep, my eyes are closed but really I'm having an argument with myself whether I should delete and rewrite the status/post I just entered on whatever social network platform I updated.  Linguistic vanity.

21st century grapevine

A small proportion of my peers consider social media as a waste of time or simply an outlet for random, mundane ramblings. The truth is, social media, particularly social networking platforms, are advantageous in propagating valuable information and insight to others, apart from the obvious advantage of being the recipient of such information and insights.  Self-publication of "persons of authority" should not be a turn off, but should be considered as admirable and bold since these individuals allow themselves to be vulnerable to immediate critique through comments or "@s" (in social media parlance). Scientists are now taking advantage of this medium to disseminate research and studies in real time even prior to publication in scientific journals.  Bora Zivkovic (@BoraZ on Twitter) who is the blogs editor at Scientific American recently tweeted, "...it is not the platform to trust, it is the people one trusts platform-agnostic. Follow the best on T, FB, G+ and blogs."