On being spiritually tepid

I have been a very moody woman these past few days and it's probably caused by many little annoyances that have stacked up to form one huge trident that's poking me. Yes, I admit that I'm currently very uptight and definitely have a stick up my rear. I find myself distracted and disorganized and just plain out of control. And I'm very very very tired...tired of work, tired of school, tired of pretending I'm not affected whenever this certain someone implies that I used witchcraft or coerced my husband to marry me (am I that butt ugly? That's a rhetorical question), tired of being broke, tired of commuting. But everytime I see my son's grin or his tricks, I become recharged. Oh well. To be filthy rich and unemployed would be very ideal at the moment.

And then I realized that I haven't been communicating with Our Lord that much. Not to be preachy, but even though everything seems to be going well for you (as in you are busy, etc etc), at the end of the day you still feel empty and sleep with a frown on your face. I've been forgetting Him. There have been many times that I've forgotten to express my gratitude for waking up, not having to line up for public transportation, having a family, being healthy, and others. I don't ask that much whenever I pray, but I have recently failed to talk to Him.

I now resolve to take it slow and enjoy each moment I have with my son and my amazing husband. I've been self-centered these days. Bad bad bad.