The Wheel of Fortune

Normally, people should feel flattered and pompous when given awards or recognition. Call me psychotic or neurotic or robotic or whatever, but I feel really uncomfortable about recognition. Simply because I know for a fact that when you are seemingly at the top of the "wheel"---you have nowhere else to go but down. Call it pure pessimism, but that's the truth. I'm suspicious of good things lately. I always predict that these things come with a price.

I need to be better influenced. I think. Anyway, at least I'm happy to have found really good friends. Real people. Odd people. Just like me. That's what's comforting right now.