it can get tiring

...being wrong. Or being told that you're wrong; implicitly and explicitly.
I'm very open to criticism, but I'm human. I'm not made of stones and iron. I have a healthy amygdala. I get hurt.

I have exerted so much effort in making sure that the people that matter in my life are pleased or at least satisfied with my activities. When I was pregnant and deemed "unproductive," I tried to submit a study for publication. Now that I'm working and doing a relatively okay job...I work too much.

So where do I put myself? I don't do things half-baked, you know. All or nothing.
I really just want to fade away right now. I feel so heavy on the chest, I can't even cry due to exhaustion.

This is really confusing.