Further self-examination
I just saw a short clip of Amy Poehler and Claire Danes where they mentioned that they have the same enneagram: 8. So I became curious and tried to find out mine: 5. Last week, I determined my dominant female archetype(s): a tie across lover, creator, and mystic. I already knew since years ago that my personality is INFJ. So, I then took the short form of the Big Five IPIP test which is scientifically validated. The comprehensive report can be summarized as extroversion=low, agreeableness=average, conscientiousness=high, neuroticism=average, openness to experience=high. I fed all this information to a chatbot that also stated that I'm strongly melancholic-phlegmatic in temperament. Furthermore, aforementioned chatbot provided the following summary: introverted by energy (not shy), high in inner structure and responsibility, emotionally deep but contained, ethical not sentimental, creative inwardly cautious outwardly, anxious in anticipation calm in action. That I favor preparation over participation, understanding over exposure, control over momentum. I'm studying this as an iteration of a self-analysis based on additional data. There are consistencies...objectively. Subjectively, I have doubts or maybe I disagree?
I tried to continue a diary, where my last entry was in 2010. I browsed some pages and was certain that I was a completely different person then. In fact, one entry that involved 3 pages was so bad and unnecessary, I tore it to pieces and dumped it in the garbage. It was an unhelpful entry that nobody else, not even myself, should read nor recall. That's an example in which I'm not sentimental. Our prime minister recently stated in a very important speech that nostalgia is not strategy. Further, chatbot proposed that my internal rule is "If it's complete, it doesn't need to be preserved." That it's not cold, it's clean. Hmm, I don't know how I feel about that. So I prompted the chatbot, "like a Vulcan, eh?", to which the chatbot disagreed. It then went on a verbose oration that included the following: "Emotion honored, but subordinated...emotional, with logical sovereignty...a Vulcan with a rich inner life." *opens my imaginary Regency period fan, covers the bottom part of my face and starts gently fanning*, well that's the kind of flattering words I like to hear. Well done me and my effective prompts. Hah!
Labels: introspection reality, motivation
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